I was driving in my car and looking at the snow-covered marvellous mountains. As I was seeing,
there was a feeling and sensation of joy that I did not want to change anything about it.
Immediately a thought entered my mind that said, “I have to bring milk from the grocery store.” I was
disturbed that in the middle of experiencing the beautiful nature, the thought of grocery came
and distracted my experience. I felt upset and resisting the thought of grocery. I saw myself
putting effort to control the thought, so I could go back to enjoying the mountains without distracting thought.
How many of us find resisting something and make an effort to control our thoughts?
Every time when we have a thought that we dislike or when we wish to experience something,
we tend to make an effort to control our thoughts. We think that by controlling them we can achieve
what we want. But we don’t realize that by controlling our thoughts, we are creating an internal
division between “what is” in the moment and what we are trying to control because of what we think "should be”. This control creates conflict within us.
When I was watching the mountains there was no effort to change it. But division occured
in the thought of grocery and in my attempting to resist and control the thought in order to change it.
Why do we make any internal effort to change something all the time?
When we make an effort to change something inside, we create a division and conflict. But
when there is no desire to control or change anything about ourselves, we are connected to our
true self. As human beings, we subconsciously attempting to gain internal control all the time, because we lack the awareness that we are dividing ourselves against each other and are deceived that we have to
control and change our thoughts. We don’t realize that in this effort and control we are
creating a division between the thinker and the thought. We always seek the state of no division but by forcing the effort, we actively work against ourselves, going against our seeking.
When we can see that the thinker and thought are one, then we stop the effort to change it.
We will flow from one thought to another without any fragmentation of our consciousness.
Remembering your true Self is acknowledging the division within and recognising the futility of
effort. Then we stay with “what is” and flow without any internal effort.
At the Happyness center our main aim is to help you develop mindfulness and deeper inner awareness of the ego-self. Together, we learn how to passively observe rather than make an effort to control our thoughts.
We invite you to join our Happyness Center community online for our March Monthly Meditation,
Sunday March 28th , as we explore to remember our true self that is lost in the chaos of division.
We all lead busy lives, and meditation can help us relax and renew. We will share, learn, and practice together. Group meditations has many advantages that can reinforce our desires of daily practice that inspires us and others.
Your Happyness Team